Monday, December 28, 2015

all I'm really asking for is you

now that you're gone,
every minute seems 
like an eleven hour flight. 

yet another reason to be thankful
that I cannot fly. 

Saturday, December 26, 2015

i wish

"tujhe cheen loon ya chod doon, maang loon ya mod doon.
iss lamhe kya kar jaaon.
iss lamhe kya kar doon,
jo mujhe chain mile, aaraam mile."

nothing is worth the destruction
that a fateful moment wrecks on your world.

the sideward glance to check if you really leaned in too close,
the music wasn't so loud anyway.
the quiet hand of warning on a shoulder
not to pull you away from me,
but to hold you back from the storm.
her imperceptible smile as warning when you wave goodbye.

worlds apart, but i can still feel your touch.

nothing is worth the pain and anguish
of a broken heart, spilled like cheap wine on expensive furniture.

nothing can fix the end of this story.
and like a madman, frantically turning the last pages of the book
unwilling to believe the tale is done,
i sit here knowing,
not even time will heal my soul.

Sunday, December 6, 2015

kiss song

"maybe if the stars align, maybe if our worlds collide,
maybe on the dark side, we could be together." 

and one day, out of the blue,
when we were sitting on the floor,
feet entwined, warmth flowing through each other,
the music hiding behind the curtains,
careful not to interrupt the peace,
the smoke making circles around us,

he looked up and told me,
i can be anything you want me to be.

i had to smile.
i kissed him, but that wasn't the right answer.

what do you want me to be? he persisted.
i could not find the words,
knowing he would never be brave enough to hear the truth.

have you decided what you want me to be?
mine. i want you to be mine.