what is it about sleeping alone that gives you nightmares? when you finally fall asleep, amidst the noises, the cracks, the knocks and the howling wind, after repeatedly telling yourself that there is no one in the corner staring at you, you realise that its your dreams you should be afraid of. not the darkness.
your dreams full of light and colour and movement that reveal what you do not want to know.
and when you wake, you see that it's all true. and that you do not have the courage to see it, except in your dreams.
and when there is no one beside you to share the sunlight coming through the window, you stare at the ceiling for a minute and you tell yourself, "it's only a dream." "don't worry, it's only a dream."