Monday, April 10, 2023

why are you surprised?

like the horizon waits patiently for the sun to return, 
i waited too. 
i looked to the stars for signs,
and they pointed nowhere. 
i asked the trees for stories of you,
but they just whispered quietly to themselves. 
i only know as much as you do, the wind offered. 
quiet words, not meant to be comforting. 
i threw my head into cold river waters, 
hoping the fish would spill your secrets. 
but they swam on by, deftly avoiding my tears. 
i wrote to the moon, asking for advise. 
and he left me unread. 

and one day, a cat came to me. 
sat by me, an arm's length away. 
her back arched when i reached down to stroke her, 
it was a subtle no, as if to say
you can see but you cannot touch. 
i understood. 
we both sat by the water, until the air turned cold. 
she knew i needed silence, 
and that's all she had to offer. 
her tail swung lazily as if cleansing my aura, 
her eyes fixed on my soul. 
she waited. 
while i cried and sobbed and laughed foolishly in between, 
she waited for me to finally sigh and breathe deeply. 
she blinked slowly while i looked up to the skies
and finally smiled. 
she got up and stretched, as i fixed my hair. 
she knew i will be alright. 
she let me go.
and with a swish of her tail, she told me to do the same. 
she turned around for one last look, 
why are you surprised? she seemed to say. 
you already knew that was the only thing to do. 


Sunday, April 2, 2023

Detective Clues. 1.


simply unforgettable,
like a song that refuses to leave your lips,
or a wind that knocks on your windows, late at night,​
​you knew there was more to my story.
something hidden, something unsaid. 
did you find the clues i had left? 
in between my thighs, behind my ear,
my clutched fingers betraying my innocence.
did you find the fiery hints of desire,
between the breathless gasps of utter surrender, 
as you explored the depths of me? 
did you see my eyes give away my desperate need,
to feel your hands inside me,
searching for an alibi, when you knew I had none?
were you looking for the lies my hips might tell
when you rummaged through my hungry body?
spent and speechless, after hours,
like an interrogation that never leaves the room, 
my hair carried the scent of your passion, 
as i walked past unsuspecting gatekeepers.  
did you find the signs of the struggle,
of my mind and my heart fighting over you? 
did you finally put the pieces together, when we locked eyes, 
as the orange sky peeked through the curtain,
revealing the remnants of our kisses, 
scattered across the room, and splattered on the walls? 
did you look at me and see me smiling as i got away with it?
i am guilty, i declare, at last. 
i wasn't looking to love,​ ​but you made me want to do it.