resignation

yesterday i wrote
the most difficult poem
i ever wrote.
it was about giving you up,
and walking into the unknown
and never coming back.
the blank sheet of paper
transformed
into a last will,
a testament
to the love we've shared
and now lost to us forever.
four lines at the most,
and yet, the paper loomed over me
like a sermon, a verdict
from a jury who we knew
would never forgive.
and when you asked me if i had
any last words,
i rummaged through the drawers
of our love
to find something worthy.
and all i could come up with
was
goodbye.

foretold

it's not the best, but it will do. meanwhile, high up in the snow-capped mountains, there is a burial ground for books. not just any book though, only the best. only the ones worth burying. because we shall return to the earth what we took from it. and yet, you still believe in the fantasy. the crazy miraculous day dream that you survived a plane crash. you were the only one, and you come out with only a broken heart. reality, and i pray it never touches you, is you come out with only parts of yourself. the other halves desecrated into thin air. and you sit down, with difficulty, trying to find the words that may one day, be buried in the mountain. again, another fantasy. the words don't come. how can you write about something you only imagined? the pages remain blank, and the list of things that have to be done become longer. some day. 

suit yourself

"is this how two adults, who care for each other, move on?" 
"as far as i'm concerned, two adults who care for each other, don't move on." 

do you know why the phoenix rises from the ashes? because it is in love with the fire, no matter how it hurts. and you'll see the love in its eyes, shining brighter than the fire when its wings start to burn. and when it is consumed, there comes a moment of complete silence, with even the sun holding its breath. and then the ash starts to twirl, twinkling through the darkness, rising slowly as each feather comes to life in a glorious flame of love. each time the phoenix dies for love, it is born again out of love. you've seen me burn. now, watch me rise. i promise, you won't be able to tear your eyes away. i promise, your won't be able to blink. i promise, you will want to burn in the same fire.