resignation

yesterday i wrote
the most difficult poem
i ever wrote.
it was about giving you up,
and walking into the unknown
and never coming back.
the blank sheet of paper
transformed
into a last will,
a testament
to the love we've shared
and now lost to us forever.
four lines at the most,
and yet, the paper loomed over me
like a sermon, a verdict
from a jury who we knew
would never forgive.
and when you asked me if i had
any last words,
i rummaged through the drawers
of our love
to find something worthy.
and all i could come up with
was
goodbye.