Tuesday, June 30, 2015

a loneliness deeper than the sea

It's a lonely world
too few words to say what I mean, 
too many questions
with answers I don't want. 
it's a damn cold night 
when you finally know
that even the arms of the one you love
cannot heal the chill in your bones. 
I've left love behind me, 
and so it burned our bridges in anger.

now I don't recognise it anymore. 
and i will never know what it means 
to belong 
to you. 

it's a lonely road 
no lights on the way, 
and I know now 
that the end of the tunnel 
is darker than the beginning.  

the desperate sadness of heartbreak 
has built a fort around me 
that will last one thousand years, 
and even if in ruins, 
will be marvelled at one day. 
In the meantime 
all I can hope for 
is for it to protect me
against even the most furious rain. 


Monday, June 29, 2015

pit stops

fear grips me on the inside, but i'm still smiling.
i've never been more afraid in my life.

it's been a long time coming, this unforgiving doom
i've learnt its secrets, and know its truth.
i realize it's time to leave, before it gets too late;
before i'm trapped in this maze
that has no beginning and no end.

the trees in the dark forest tell me to calm down,
steady your breathing, close your eyes.
the tree, they say, never grudges the leaves for leaving,
the river doesn't complain about the fish
swimming upstream.
books don't cry about unhappy endings,
like doors that cannot ask to never be closed.

i will never be rid of this fear.
and when you take me in your arms,
i close my eyes
so i don't have see its blazing eyes
staring at me through the darkness.

Friday, June 19, 2015

it felt like goodbye

"i can't promise i will heal you,
but if you want to,
i will try"

look at us now.
we have crashed and burned,
and set the world on fire.

look at us now.
even the most determined rain
cannot stop the ashes of our love
from dancing in the wind.

this fire will never end
until the safest place in the world
has burned down to nothing,
and become poems rushing to meet the wet earth.

look at us now.
we laughed at the clock tick against us,
but we never took a minute
to learn how to say goodbye.

look at us now.
so much to say to each other,
in languages neither of us speak.
our only hope is to watch as the rain cries,
begging for forgiveness
while our tears turn into fire in our eyes.

look at me now.
i know the right words,
but only you know the song.

look at you now.
you know the way i want to be kissed,
but only i know how to say goodbye.