big words

countless plates of steaming, spicy food cooked up in a hurry
hundreds of shirts ironed and hung up in dark cupboards,
several pairs of socks pulled together in invisible lumps,
many many messages sent and delivered and read,
too many signs of abandonment ignored as each day passes,
many uncomfortable movies watched with aching elbows;

and always that one desperate look in your eyes,
begging me to love you and leave you alone.

if this is love,
then i shall not believe in eternity.