holding my breath against the weight of the water,
beating my hands against the fury of the dark,
my legs are struggling to push away from the horizon.
but I can feel myself drowning.
there's water in my lungs,
an unforgiving pain in my skull,
my veins are running for all their worth,
knowing my blood will soon stop flowing.
my limbs are getting tired
and my heart is in pieces,
breaking further into ash.
I'm drowning
and not even a Phoenix can rise
if it drowned in darkness.
I'm drowning
and with my last dying thought,
I pray that it is not you that saves me.
because if you do,
I may hold on
and never let go.